HELP!

My history exam is on Tuesday and once again I am freeeaking out. I realised this morning whilst reflecting on everything I had done to revise that the majority of the time I have been trying to (indirectly) figure out a formula for the perfect essay. Is it that obvious I also study physics?

Does anybody have any useful advice about essay writing? Or about the history of Russia?

Also I am trying to find a present for my boyfriend so any suggestions I would be very grateful for :)

"Love the positive attitude"

I apologise in advance to anyone that may stumble across this blog and start reading it. This is a self loathing blog that will probably only be vaguely interesting to someone in a similar situation. You probably want to consider this before you continue.

If anthing was going to be worth while at my age you would think it would be revision. Studying hard so that you can be confident that when you go into an exam you can do your best and that will be enough to get you the grade you want. You would think.

Maybe I'm just expecting too much of myself, I have always been average and I will probably always be average - and when you're taking a subject that you have to be pretty exceptional to do well in I should probably be happy with passing it.

I shouldn't really talk like this yet, I've barely left the classroom but right now I just feel so angry with myself that I spent all this time learning formulae and practising and practising just screw up when it actually matters. I'm in a placed filled with self pitty - which just makes me even more angry with myself. 

I hate exams.

I hate physics.

Words from my father: "Love the positive attitude."

Thanks Dad.