My computer is broken.

And my laptop is broken.
My Dad is going to go mental.

Add Vinegar to your Toffee

I made toffee today :) Definitely a highlight of the week, but it's very moreish and I know it's just going to make me feel ill. It'll be good when I get another sugar craving. 

When we found the recipe on the internet it said to add vinegar to in which we all (me, my sister and my brother) disbelieved instantly. Turns out it makes it go hard or something. So I think I need to be more trusting - generally, not just with strangers on the internet. 

Am I Crazy?

I've spent all week pretty much feeling like crap and generally lonely because my boyfriend (and best friend), the person I can talk to about anything has been away and not talking to me. And because I trust his judgement and I couldn't decide what to do I texted him and asked if I should go out. Of course he said yes! Go and enjoy yourself, so I said ok happy valentine's hope you're having fun with the German girls and he replied with how it was a cockfest really.

He got back today, didn't tell me he was back. I spoke to him on facebook and he said sorry he was talking to German people (who he's spent all week with) and then told me it wasn't infact a cockfest last night but he told me that "to make me feel better" (lied). And now he doesn't understand why I'm pissed off.

Sorry dearest if I don't like being ignored, lied to and pitied. I'll remember for next time.

I hate Valentine's Day

And I REALLY hate my boyfriend.

Two things you can always count on to disappoint.

I will elaborate later, I have to go to work now.

(Considering renaming my blog Confessions of an Angry Girl)

Worst Valentines Ever.

This will be the third year in a row that I have had a boyfriend for Valentine's Day. It will also, however, be the third year in a row that I haven't seen my boyfriend on Valentine's. 

This year will be particularly bad though because he's in Germany and barely speaking to me. This time of year you're supposed to feel happy and in love (though many people would argue that Valentine's Day has the opposite affect) but it's making me feel like crap. I have a feeling that I will have spent the last nine days being sad and he'll get back and not want me anymore, and all he'll want to talk about is how crap England is compared to Germany where he had an amazing house, food, he could drink in bars and go out all the time and had his ideal job. All of a sudden I just wont be enough. 

Also today the magazine I write for's new issue was supposed to be coming out, and it was our best yet (granted it's only our second) and then they wouldn't give us the time to print it. So now the Valentine's edition of 6ix becomes irrelevant and about three articles and a comic strip have to be rewritten to come out next week because Valentine's will be over. Very frustrating.

Currently I want to be sick (strangely I don't feel sad and want to cry anymore things just make me want to throw up. I haven't decided whether that's a better alternative yet.) because I've made plans for tomorrow night with my friend and some guys I haven't seen for ages. I know this will piss off my boyfriend but all I really want to do is curl up, watch Ferris Bueller's Day Off and drink all night. Probably throw in some chocolate.

Happy Valentine's everyone.

x

Note to self: join less social networking sites, they only dissapoint.

I could kill facebook! If it were, in fact, a living person. Which of course it isn't.

It's not letting me get online because of "maintenance" which only I seem to be getting. I suppose I should be grateful for this special treatment I'm getting but I really want to speak to my boyfriend who is in a foreign country at the moment :|

Plus I keep getting excited because I think I have e-mails from him but they're actually from Twitter. Note to self: join less social networking sites, they only disappoint.

On a brighter note, a picture I did yesterday and was very impressed with :)

The Wonders of Chocolate

After a pretty crappy and stressful day yesterday when I just wanted to curl up in the corner and cry (PMT) today has been much improved. Mainly because my English exam went well (I hope) and the school paper is looking much better than last issue, PLUS I even had a pleasant art lesson which is a very rare occurrence these days. 

I'm so happy with my new topic and new book for art, I have so many ideas for in - it's just generally going well so I'm happy :)

When I wrote the title of this blog the chocolate had cheered me up plenty, now it's just making me feel sick. In a good way of course - because you can't say anything negative about chocolate, even if it makes you fat it's in a good chocolaty way. That is my theory why I was so unhappy in comparison to today, because I didn't have any chocolate. I'm in such a good mood I'm even going to let my sister have the last brownie. Though that's possibly because I think it's gone stale anyway.

Another reason to be positive is that it's only four days and counting until my boyfriends back in the country now. The ignoring I'm doing (or attempting to, it's only lasted a day so far) is going well and hopefully is making him miss and appreciate me more, though I doubt is stopped being absorbed by Germany and the wonderful food and houses it has to offer, as he's told me. Yesterday I was so pissed that he wasn't around but I'm just trying to look at it a different way and stop getting so wrapped up in the way that I feel about it and just be happy that he's having such a good time without me. 

The only downside to today is that I still have Italian and English homework to do that's due in tomorrow. Plus my driving lesson got cancelled due to snow. When will the snow leave *shakes fist at clouds* It has definitely outstayed it's welcome.

Igloo :)

The snow is getting just a little bit ridiculous now. I'm not complaining really, I've got another day off school this week. However I've just watched my Dad straining to get his car off the drive with the help of all the neighbours and his Land Rover Defender, and then got almost run over by one of the aforementioned helpful neighbours.

It has been quite a productive week snow wise really, my family and I have managed to build an igloo (which I did think was spelt iglu but apparently not, I think that is a brand of deserts though).

But that is not the reason I was going to write a blog, I just thought you'd like to see that. I really wanted to moan about my boyfriend and my family again and even as I'm writing this I'm thinking I probably shouldn't. I'm going to put it to the back of my mind and go do some work instead.